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I am so confused right now. Having a hard time untuk menaikkan berat badan.

Berat badan gw stuck di angka 40kg, tapi kadang suka tiba-tiba turun ke 38kg gitu dan gak naik-naik lagi,
Sebenernya, ini karena gen atau emang penyakit?

Kalo gen, di keluarga bokap gw badannya pada kurus-kurus dan bertulang kecil, kalo di nyokap banyak yang ndut-ndut lucu tulangnya juga gede-gede. Jadi, apa karena gen dari bokap?

Tapi, nyokap gw cerita kalo waktu kecil gw pernah dibawa ke dokter tumbuh kembang gizi anak gitu, dan kata dokternya, setiap kali gw makan, lemaknya itu kebawa keluar semua bareng feses jadi, cuma sedikit lemak yang nempel di badan gw. Masa sampe sekarang?

But living this life with oh-so-skinny body isn't that good.

Baru beberapa saat masuk ke mall aja udah kedinginan gara-gara di badan gak ada lemaknya :"
Terus, jadi kaya ngga kuat ngapa-ngapain gitu. Rasanya habis kulit langsung tulang. Digigit nyamuk aja rasanya nyes gitu kaya bener-bener langsung tulangnya. Temen-temen yang ketemu pasti bilang gw kurusan, gak ngerti gimana lagi caranya naikin berat badan. Padahal makanan yang gw makan juga bikin orang gemuk harusnya tapi ya ngga gemuk-gemuk ini huhuhu.

Any suggestion?

My Kind of Love
posted on 7/26/13 at 10:59 PM | 0 cmnt/s

Hello! How's your day?
I'm going to post about..... ah just read it if you want, if you don't, you know where the close button :-)

Well, if I write a post titled "My Kind of Love" maybe someone out there would have such an "illfeel" thing. Hahaha. Moreover, when he read it.

Okay, my boyfriend is not a person who's so into this. He doesn't like that kind of relationship which has to be seen by the universe so, I assume that he only want me, only me who knows the way he feels for me. I am feeling special because of that but, sometimes I want people to know how cute he is. There are some of our friends who say "Pacaran, tapi kaya orang ngga pacaran ya kalian" and we like that. We really like that because being like that is fun and we don't always have to be seen as a lover.

The words "I love you" is way too priceless for us, saying that before sleep or in the morning is not our kind of relationship's habit. He would say that he love me when we just got into a fight or when we celebrate our anniversary day. I like his style of being into this relationship. Even if it's his first time to be in a relationship, but he knows how to treat me. I do love the way he treats me and I think, my mom loves it too. At first, my mom doesn't really like him but when it came to my birthday, I showed her the video he gave me and after that, she constantly ask how is he doing..

There are some of his personality that I hate a lot but all of them are covered by his kindness and sweetness. I hate the way he mad at me, he would end up being quiet all day to me and I always can't stand that! He is so scary whenever he mad. Insane. He often apologize first and I always end up forgive him because I still want him in my live so bad. Despite all of that, I bet you're gonna envy me.. He likes to text me "Take a look   in front of your house, who's there" and it's him carrying a bouquet of red roses and straightly say "Happy anniversary" or on the rainy day when mbak doesn't cook for lunch, he would come to my house all wet bringing me a packet of Happy Meal which has a minion in it. He always show his love by his act, not his words. Doing a sweet thing is much better than saying sweet things.

Whenever I tell him how afraid I am of losing him or those break up issues, he would say if everything gonna be just fine, we don't have to worry about tomorrow, maybe we have a destination but we don't even know what's going to come in front of us, "Kaya jalan di terowongan aja, kalo dijalanin terus juga ketemu titik terangnya" okaaaay! and I pity him a lot for saying that he have to spend those 17 years of his life waiting for me then does he have to spend another 17 years to look for someone who can replace me? hahaha.

Well, I can never thank Allah enough for bringing him into my life. Please stay a little bit longer.

I love the way you can listen to all my stories as a best friend, love me like a lover, spoil me like I am your younger sister or your daughter, respect me the way you respect your mom, support me like I am your idol, the way you get jealous, how you spend your time with me, how we make up after a fight, how dying you are to see me dressing up; putting make up on my face; and wearing heels like a sweet young lady, I love you, everything about you. I love you, even if I can't tell you everyday, you have to know that I always do.

You know, we are living in the best kind of relationship. Why? Because the best kind of relationship is with the most unexpected person at the most unexpected time.        
There's a reason why we love each other now, and we don't know if this is forever.
There's a reason why we are together now, and we don't care if it's not forever now.
Ah! How I love being in love. Thank you for completing me!

I love you Mafaza, I really do! <3 p="">xx

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