riaspram

Time to Say "Bye"
posted on 7/12/12 at 12:14 AM | 0 cmnt/s

Hi...bad news alert :")
I was spending my holiday to 'ziarah' at Maddinah, Mekkah and Jeddah. Firstly, Alhamdulillah dpt rezeki duluan dibanding Bapak&Ibu. So gue berangkatnya sama om gue sekeluarga. Disana, gue mencoba untuk memperbaiki diri, sungguh-sungguh dll. Banyak-banyak berdoa minta yang terbaik.


Waktu di Mekkah banyak banget doanya, bocorin satu deh yaitu.....'didekatkan jodohnya' hahaha pertama mau doa ini sih agak malu ya, karena jodoh tuh masih jauh banget belom saatnya lah pokoknya, tapi ya sekali-kali deh ya hehe. Dan beberapa saat kemudian...


We talked about focus thingy, he said that he wanted to be accepted at one of the best university in Indonesia. I wanted it too but, I didn't want to break up. Well, this wasn't the first time he talked about something that directing to a break-up stuffs, every time when he said "K, let's just break up" I always tried my hardest to prevent a break-up. But that time, I've promised my self to let him go whenever he asked for it again. And then, that day was coming. I tried a little bit again at the first but he gave me up. So, we broke up.


I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to cry because I was in the place I wanted to visit the most, I should be happy there. But, I just couldn't hold my tears, I cried. Just for a while. All of my cousins tried to cheer me up. Allah made me stronger, I put some thought that it was the answer of my pray. Allah have much better plan for me. :)


Thanks for every seconds that we've spent together for the 27 months and a day. Thanks for the joy, the sorrow and every little thing you did. Thanks for the memories. I'm sorry, I changed a lot. I'm sorry if I never hear&accept your advices. I'm sorry, I can't be what you want, what you need, your everything. The point is, I still love you even it's not the same as it used to. But no matter what, you've been a part of my page.


I don't know what to write again, it's still sad. I still think of you. But it'll just be useless. You'll be focus on your study, and I'll just follow what you want. I'm going to be focused too then.


Well it's time to say bye. 
Once again, thanks for the adventure, now go have a new one, R! 
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