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new life
posted on 9/27/12 at 7:27 PM | 0 cmnt/s

why? why it has to be this fast? i've been letting it flow and this is the result. there's a yyoung man, he stole my heart and he didn't even try to return it to me. here's the story....take your chips and it won't be creepy (because i'll write this post with feelings and heart :b), i hope. 

i know him since he was a new student in my junior high school. we didn't know each other, well i just knew him as 'a new student' there. just like that.

we go to the same senior high school. back at 2010, he went to X7 and i went to X8. so, we were near right? but still, we didn't know each other. i only knew his face and his name. and also, we were friends in messenger. 

11th grader. we went to science class. i was in science 1 and he was in science 4. he went to the same class with my best friends, tidy feliza and dhifa. in the 2nd semester his classroom had a trouble with the air conditioners so, science 4 move to XII social 4. you know, XII social 4 classroom was there, stick beside XI science 1. we were near, right? and i remembered there was a time i saw him passed through my class, and i had a thought "he's cool". it was just like that. ya know, i had a boyfriend that time, so i didn't think much of my thought about him. 

i broke up. i told you in my several posts before. i feel lost but i knew i'll be fine. 

mos 42 2012. he was mentoring a class, and i also participated on that occasion. when i went to the class which the mentor was him. i felt like, oh my goodness..and it all went okay. and finally, we knew each other. we started to talk.

we started to contact each other too since we've been gone to the same class at bta. we dine out together with some friends too. and that time i had a little thought on my mind. i started to like him. but it all went in common. i haven't fell for him. but..........................................

it was holiday. a holiday that we always have in ramadhan and syawal month. we contact each other while we 'mudik' intensively. almost everyday of holiday. and i thought, i started to fall. fall for a young man i just knew. we continued to keep contact. until the day we had to go back to school. i had no idea. i never thought that our chat was a 'something' i always thought that everything was usual. nothing special. i didn't expect much of him. because i knew, he was careless. he didn't think much about girl. 

the day had come. 14 of september. my school held a 'latihan gabungan' for the 10th grader. i was placed in the climax post. physic&mental guiding or bimet for short. i was afraid if i couldn't do my best as a leader. feliza was there too. she knew that i like him. she realized something weird about him. he went to bimet for several times, he talked to me but i had no idea. because on fridays we have to go to bta and we both had to skip the 1st lesson because of latgab, i went there with him. 

 i was sooo tired, i felt something wasn't right with my tummy, i had a headache and all the things came troughout  my mind. i was really lost. i didn't know what was i supposed to do. on the way to bta, he said that he was hungry and asked me to eat before we head to bta. we had a chitchat it was fun. but i couldn't handle my tiredness.. all the moods i had were blending in. and out of the blue, he started to talk "gue lagi deket dong sama cewek. mau tau ga siapa?" "siapa?" "depannya R" "cie riris ya?" "kok riris? rias tau" *my heart skipped a beat* "mau nggak jadi pacar gue" he continued. and i spontaneously said "gak" "kok nggak?" "kan lo bercanda" "gue ngga bercanda" ooOooOOOoooOOoooOOOooo all the thoughts, all the moods were blending in and i had no clue of what was i supposed to say and do. he asked me to be his girlfriend. as simple as that, out of the blue. 

 we went to bta and i haven't told him the answer heheheh. i completely felt awkward, i felt like i was going to explode flew away trough the skies.... i couldn't concentrated on my study that time. 

 well before we went home i said "sorry, gabisa nolak" and we were officialy in a relationship. 


"The best kind of 
love is with the
most unexpected 
person at the most
unexpected time"


i think that quote is true. i love him. i love the way he makes me feel. the way he leads me to think that 'past is just past. it is your memory, you dont have to delete it but now youre with me'. the way he holds my hands. the way his eyes stare to my heart. the way he walks :b. the way he makes jokes. the way he laugh. the way his eyes will smile when it meet mine. the way he act. he doesn't talk much but he does more and more and moooorreeeee and that's what i love about him the most.

enough for this post. i'll tell you more about him, bloggie. :-)


I love you, Rigel Mafaza♥. :-)



p.s. sorry for the bad grammar and writing, still learning though:b

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