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2012
posted on 12/31/12 at 5:26 PM | 0 cmnt/s

hellooooooo! 
i just finished my latest post and i feel relief. i was crying loh haha such a crybaby-_-

 and then, this is the last day in 2012. what have you done on the whole year?
2012 flies sooo fast. 
and here are what i've done in this year.

 BAD MOMENTS (that i remember):

  • Knowing a tsunami in the early year. Japan, be save!
  • Had trouble with my scores
  • Argued with parents
  • Believed in a fake hope my father gave
  • Unwanted break-up
  • Breaking up problem
  • Split up with my Loostusteadus
  • Feeling empty
  • Sick for a week so i couldn't attend school
  • Argued with my very best friends
  • The other best friend mad at me 
  • The whole people in XII Science 1 had to sign on a letter of agreement with teacher
  • Felt lost like i had no friend
  • Friends blaming me because i found someone
  • Couldn't have a holiday with my family
  • Eyang Rini passed away..
  • Recognize who "this" person really is

and many more that i forgot

 GOOD MOMENTS (that i remember too):

  • One of my dreams came true, i went umrah :')
  • Khrisma got a new job after resign!
  • Oki graduated
  • Mom got a new car
  • Went to the 12 grade
  • Blend in with class
  • Got a new cellphone
  • Running Man 2nd Anniversary and yet still goes on till now!
  • Off position as a leader of PHOSPOR and gave it to the right person
  • Met new people in BTA45
  • A stronger best friend relationship
  • Seven-eleven
  • Found someone new :-)
  • Got my toefl score as what my father bet me


 Ah, good moments are too many and i can't write em all here

 and here are also my resolution for 2013

  • won't get my ass stick up too long to play with my laptop
  • study harder! and no more lazy things
  • stay healthy
  • pass all the tests smoothly
  • go to the nation university
  • see happy smile at my parent's face
  • HOLIDAY!
  • get my body taller
  • all of my projects status will be completely success
  • looking for a job, too
  • my whole family are still given chance to live longer in a very nice condition
  • relationship is still going well

and soo many more heheheh

 maybe i'll post again because it's too boring here huh 
adieu!  

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posted on at 3:56 PM | 0 cmnt/s

hi there, uhm
i have a not so good day today, i really want to throw everything that has been bothering me. 
i know i shouldn't share it on a social media like this but i don't know who else would hear. they would say that i'm a grumbler, maybe i am, but no one really understand how i feel. not even ONE. 

 so, as you know, i'm living my life as an only child. i bet you think that "wow, cool an only child, she can get everything she wanted", "there'll be no one disturbing her", "she must be loved by her parents" NO! 
yeah maybe i can get everything i wanted BUT if i can give my parents something too, such as a good toefl score or the other school's stuffs. and you know, sometime it is tiring to beg for their (parents') time. both of them are workaholic. correct it, my mom is still trying to make time for me. how about my dad? he doesn't. weekend, holiday, red date or else he-still-make-his-job-as-a-priority. mark it. once i get his time, there's always something that makes me mad. like on the way, heading to somewhere, he never stop talking on the phone. and i do hate it, a lot. 

 i always stay at home everyday, school day. just with mbak. i do really want to play with my friends on holiday, but nowadays my mom always ban me to do this or that. maybe that's because i am a 12 grader that have to study all over seconds. it's so stressing me. i think my mom wants me to be an anti-social kid who only have mbak, masjon and masno as friends. being home alone is boooooooorrrrriiiiiinnnggggggg. 

 i don't know what else to say. 

 today, 31st of December 2012. i was planning a new year event with tika and tito but my mom has successfully ruin it. :-)
i envy people who gonna spend their new year event with their lovely family.
and on the other side my dad is in his office now, i don't know what is he doing there but i know for sure he doesn't even think of spending time with mom&me. thank you so much for your attention, daddy! there's only you who can make me feel loved and forgotten at the same time. i love you mom&dad :")
me? i think i'm just going to surf the internet or watch some variety shows, alone. 
if only my cousins were here, i won't feel this lonely. 

 bye!

birthday
posted on 12/19/12 at 6:29 PM | 0 cmnt/s

aha, howdiee? been so long since i haven't done some posts here. 
senior year's life was extremely time-consuming. well, the point is, i want to share my birthday story with you, i know this is toooooo late, but i want to show you something.

waktu itu, dari tanggal 5 November, gue bikin scrapbook untuk bapak tercinta yang kebetulan ultahnya barengan, nggak kebetulan sih tapi emang disengaja biar bareng...

dan tanggal 7, my Mr. Mfz, told me that he had an accident. i thought he was just joking but he sent me a picture of his foot...bloody damn

nah pas tanggal 8 itu gue bawa scrapbooknya kesekolah karena emang gamungkin nyelesaiin dirumah jadi minta bantuan ke temen. dan sepulang sekolah tanggal 8 itu, gue sama geng BTA tambahan di bta 53, gue berangkat bareng tidy dan dhifa, naik taksi, peralatan scrapbook+scrapbooknya gue taro di tas tentengan kecil. setelah sampe di BTA, gue baru nyadar kalo tas tentengan gue itu gaada. panic. panic. and panic. belajarpun tak konsen, bingung, resah, gelisah dll, rasanya itu kaya lagi naik halilintar terus kelempar ke kora-kora terus ngepar di bianglala dan akhirnya nyemplung ke danau.....*krik. 
tapi akhirnya gue nelfon BTA-45 dan ternyata................ADA! 
dan rasa senengnya itu kaya habis dapet 100 dalam semua mata pelajaran whoaaaaaah, my scrapbook status was safe.

malem itu agak aneh, mfz bilang biar gue gausah les aja soalnya bsk kan ultah waktunya seneng2, dia juga bilang feelingnya gaenak, apatau, ga pro bgt ya hahaha tp gue tetep ngeyel biar les.
terus, tiba2 nyokap juga bilang biar besok gausah les, doi mau ngajak makan-makan.
tidy juga bilang kalo besok dia nggak les karena mau main sama pacarnya
and so i said "liat besok aja" to my mom.

finally, 00.00, November 9th 2012
i asleep and so did my father. but mom, woke me up and asked me to move to her bedroom and i saw candle-lights! wow! it was a birthday cake for me and my father. we made wishes as we blew the candles. i was soooo happy!
(muka bangun tidur, duo alay)

seperti ultah2 sebelumnya, gue bagi-bagi j.co ke temen-temen sekelas. dan belum ada ucapan dari si M. gue tanya ke temen sekelasnya dia masuk atau nggak, katanya enggak dan....retaklah hati ini *dikit.
tapi pas istirahat, 3 sahabat ajinomoto datang menghampiri (yang 1 sih sebangku). mereka bawa bingkisan guedeeeeee. pertama sih bilangnya bukan buat gue tapi ternyata..............mfz nimbrung, bingung kan orang, katanya sih gamasuk, tapi.....ya suka-suka lo deeeeh. and then i opened the present. 
                                                                  "W-H-O-A-H!" 
this is the present that i have been waiting for the rest of my life!!! couldn't be happier at that time heheheh, thanks a lot Ajinomoto (feliza, paron&tidy) 



tapi tetep aja mfz ini ga ngucapin. he was being such a mood breaker.
tapi ya biarin deh ya biar dia seneng aja. 
terus balik deh ke kelas, dija bilang "check laci" gue check deh, pas dibuka.....................i found a cap, a cap that i have been looking for hwaaaaaa thank you so much my vice, Nadia Dija <:-d font="font">

jam pulang sekolahpun tiba, karena kesel dan bt akhirnya gue memutuskan untuk tidak les, pulang sekolah pun dijemput sama mas johno. terus tidur deh di mobil. sampe rumah, bangun sebentar, terus nyopot jilbab (karena waktu itu hari jumat) terus naro tas, nyamperin ibu ke kamar dan plek.....tertidur, i didn't even remove my shocks-___- 

lagi asik tidur tiba2 ada yang berisik, kirain siapa.......ternyata tika si kepala suku dan gue langsung melek pas liat ada posternya donghae!!!! whoaaaa happy sekaliiii. 

tika langsung sok-sok-an ngajak nonton di kamar gue, ok gue turutin tapi gue mbatin.... kok tika doang ya, kece mana huft mana gue juga masih bt sama mfz. bt bangeeeet hoaaah. 

 tapi tau-tau ada yang rame dan ternyata......jjang! 
gue liat dhifa tidy radian tito titis dan.............mfz he:-D
what a surprise! tapi mereka memberikan hadiah yang sangaaaaat menggelikan, yaitu adalah topi kodok i couldn't stand it, really-_-
dan mfz datang membawa sekuntum mawar merah huaa dasar anak alay yang dengkulnya (waktu itu) luka-luka tp cinta kok :-*

 waktu lagi ngobrol-ngobrol sama kece, aldi pun datang. dan tau tau mfz keluar, nyuruh gue ikut keluar, taunya dia udah bawa telor, otomatis saya kabur tapi di tenteng, tangan diipegang aldi, kaki dipegang mfz, kebayang ga? hhh jangan dibayangin deh. disitu disiram pake big cola, tepung, kopi bubuk bahkan cair dan abu rokok :""""""( teman mavam apa kalian ini.............tp sayang bangeeet ce sama kalian ({})

 setelah itu, selesai sudah penyiksaannya............trimakasih banyak! 
tptptptptptptp ada kado susulan ternyata, kata mfz "karena kemaren kecelakaan, kadonya nyusul ya"
do you know, he gave me this...........

  



dan ada kado susulan lagi dari  tidooooy, which is what i've been looking for too hehe


by the way, i'm touched by the video walaupun ada kesalahan teknis dalam penulisan "birthday" jadi "birhtday" hahaha maklum kok habis kecelakaan sih ya. but........i do love it! 
love people in it, and i love you guys, sooooooooooo much! :-*

enough for this long post, adieu!

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action yay!
posted on 10/21/12 at 8:07 AM | 0 cmnt/s

hi. i've told you about R, right? yep. 

he keep his words 'talk less do more'. it was our first month. i didn't expect much, as long as we're together, i'll be fine =] he didn't say "happy anniversary" or something like that, but i'm okay sooo i lived that day as usual, but when i mentioned him on twitter "met bulan pertama @rigelmfz" he retweeted it with "okesip" hhhh songong rite? but i loooove him *ups...we promised each other not to say 'i love you' intensively :-).

tapi, di hari berikutnya, he insisted me untuk pulang dia yg nganter. lalu, teman-temanku sibuk sama gue yang mau motokopiin soal, jadi dia nunggu lama. pasti dia bete hueheheh sorry yaw! 

sampai dirumah gue, gue langsung masuk, dianya gue tinggal di depan haha, pas gue keluar........jjang! 
dia bawa bunga =" i've never know that he's sweet, walaupun cuma bilang 
"kemaren kan aku ga ngucapin, nih *sambil nyodorin bunganya* itu yang warna orange maksudnya biar kaya d'jak ya"    

yayayaya terserah lo tapi gue seneng meheheh:-3
i love the way you act! the way you calm me down, the way you listen to all my stories, waaaa! 
stay like this, please...

oke ini cuma iseng-iseng cerita buat ngilangin penat setelah uts. bye!


new life
posted on 9/27/12 at 7:27 PM | 0 cmnt/s

why? why it has to be this fast? i've been letting it flow and this is the result. there's a yyoung man, he stole my heart and he didn't even try to return it to me. here's the story....take your chips and it won't be creepy (because i'll write this post with feelings and heart :b), i hope. 

i know him since he was a new student in my junior high school. we didn't know each other, well i just knew him as 'a new student' there. just like that.

we go to the same senior high school. back at 2010, he went to X7 and i went to X8. so, we were near right? but still, we didn't know each other. i only knew his face and his name. and also, we were friends in messenger. 

11th grader. we went to science class. i was in science 1 and he was in science 4. he went to the same class with my best friends, tidy feliza and dhifa. in the 2nd semester his classroom had a trouble with the air conditioners so, science 4 move to XII social 4. you know, XII social 4 classroom was there, stick beside XI science 1. we were near, right? and i remembered there was a time i saw him passed through my class, and i had a thought "he's cool". it was just like that. ya know, i had a boyfriend that time, so i didn't think much of my thought about him. 

i broke up. i told you in my several posts before. i feel lost but i knew i'll be fine. 

mos 42 2012. he was mentoring a class, and i also participated on that occasion. when i went to the class which the mentor was him. i felt like, oh my goodness..and it all went okay. and finally, we knew each other. we started to talk.

we started to contact each other too since we've been gone to the same class at bta. we dine out together with some friends too. and that time i had a little thought on my mind. i started to like him. but it all went in common. i haven't fell for him. but..........................................

it was holiday. a holiday that we always have in ramadhan and syawal month. we contact each other while we 'mudik' intensively. almost everyday of holiday. and i thought, i started to fall. fall for a young man i just knew. we continued to keep contact. until the day we had to go back to school. i had no idea. i never thought that our chat was a 'something' i always thought that everything was usual. nothing special. i didn't expect much of him. because i knew, he was careless. he didn't think much about girl. 

the day had come. 14 of september. my school held a 'latihan gabungan' for the 10th grader. i was placed in the climax post. physic&mental guiding or bimet for short. i was afraid if i couldn't do my best as a leader. feliza was there too. she knew that i like him. she realized something weird about him. he went to bimet for several times, he talked to me but i had no idea. because on fridays we have to go to bta and we both had to skip the 1st lesson because of latgab, i went there with him. 

 i was sooo tired, i felt something wasn't right with my tummy, i had a headache and all the things came troughout  my mind. i was really lost. i didn't know what was i supposed to do. on the way to bta, he said that he was hungry and asked me to eat before we head to bta. we had a chitchat it was fun. but i couldn't handle my tiredness.. all the moods i had were blending in. and out of the blue, he started to talk "gue lagi deket dong sama cewek. mau tau ga siapa?" "siapa?" "depannya R" "cie riris ya?" "kok riris? rias tau" *my heart skipped a beat* "mau nggak jadi pacar gue" he continued. and i spontaneously said "gak" "kok nggak?" "kan lo bercanda" "gue ngga bercanda" ooOooOOOoooOOoooOOOooo all the thoughts, all the moods were blending in and i had no clue of what was i supposed to say and do. he asked me to be his girlfriend. as simple as that, out of the blue. 

 we went to bta and i haven't told him the answer heheheh. i completely felt awkward, i felt like i was going to explode flew away trough the skies.... i couldn't concentrated on my study that time. 

 well before we went home i said "sorry, gabisa nolak" and we were officialy in a relationship. 


"The best kind of 
love is with the
most unexpected 
person at the most
unexpected time"


i think that quote is true. i love him. i love the way he makes me feel. the way he leads me to think that 'past is just past. it is your memory, you dont have to delete it but now youre with me'. the way he holds my hands. the way his eyes stare to my heart. the way he walks :b. the way he makes jokes. the way he laugh. the way his eyes will smile when it meet mine. the way he act. he doesn't talk much but he does more and more and moooorreeeee and that's what i love about him the most.

enough for this post. i'll tell you more about him, bloggie. :-)


I love you, Rigel Mafaza♥. :-)



p.s. sorry for the bad grammar and writing, still learning though:b

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